一、最近，我不自覺地開始用英語思考，這讓我有點沮喪……我不曉得是因爲環境的轉變還是心境的轉變，但我揣測這是因爲我最近想的東西都不是很“平靜”，也就是說每當我覺得生氣或煩躁的時候，腦海中浮現的OS是用英文字母拼成的。
二、最近，因爲採訪工作關係，我和很多陌生人聊天、講話。我喜歡聼不同的人不同的故事。例如，我一邊吃印度餐，一邊和印度經理聊起印度美食。儘管有時候因爲他們的口音，我得要他們重復，或儘管有時候要裝得很專業的樣子，假裝很了解他們到底在說什麽，這些聊天的過程都讓我很愜意。再例如，我和Mr and Mrs K聊起書本，聊起詩人拯救世界的偉大任務這些詭異的話題，然後從中看出他們對彼此無與倫比的愛與依賴。
三、最近，我和陳勁禾小姐參訪了兩家設計精致的書店。我們一起吃炒粿條，喝冰Milo，然後聊天，聊一些緊要或無關緊要的事。有一件事，我憋了很久，最後還是跟她說了。其實也不是什麽驚天動地的大事，但是我就是一個不能守秘密的人，這點我得承認。我們在買Milo時，我問她“我們一直覺得書店的店主因爲喜歡書而認識、談戀愛，然後書店就是他們共同的寄托、愛的結晶，但是，如果這檔賣咖啡、賣茶的阿Pek，阿婆也是因爲咖啡和茶認識、談戀愛，然後這檔口便是他們共同的寄托、愛的結晶，我們會怎麽想？還浪漫嗎？
其實我只是想說，我們往往把一些特定的東西或現象與浪漫聯想，卻忘了在最平凡的角落裏，也許浪漫處處皆是。
四、最近，我有空時會抽空想想一些人。今天，我夢到一個連自己都不記得他的名字的臉龐。可是，的確，他的臉讓人有點難忘。
五、最近，我決定每天要至少寫一次自己的中文名字。因爲，很多人開始忘記怎麽寫自己的中文名，甚至連自己的中文名是什麽。Aaron或Amanda，Bart或Belinda，這些人大概都忘記自己叫陳XX或林XX了。我會為我孩子取個好聽的中文名，希望他們一輩子都不會忘記自己的名字。
六、最近，我覺得不管是在世界的哪個角落，我都可以覺得很自在。所以，我要當浪人，當nomad。
P.S:最近，我買了很多書 :)
Sunday, September 20, 2009
我最近在“忙”什麽？
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
ION
"We pledge to build a democratic society. And truly in these last 44 years we have built..and built and built. And what we have gained is an infrastructure, an edifice, a corporate head quarters. We have built the house but not the home." - Kenneth Jayeratnam, Reform Party
Sunday, September 6, 2009
嘿美老師的背影
哈哈哈哈
嘿美=Hedwig，這是哈裏波特電影裏貓頭鷹Hedwig名字的中文翻譯。
左下角的Hedwig從背影看就看出她是個很有威嚴的女人。AWESOME。
我們全班到Biopolis（啓奧園）參觀去！
這是斑馬魚……也是這次參觀的highlight，但是我們難免有點失望，因爲這些模式動物都被裝在魚缸裏。看著魚兒游來游去，和參觀寵物店沒兩樣，所以有點悶咯……
我們興奮的表情有點牽強……哈哈
看起來普通不過的魚缸
它們也太小了……而且，我們一個變種型斑馬魚都沒看到。什麽兩個頭的斑馬魚，長瘤的斑馬魚，一個都沒看到！
只希望下一個excursion會更好！
Saturday, September 5, 2009
我，村上春树还有那位叫Nagasawa的男配角
我。
昨天在地铁上，我又再一次成为“让位勇士”了。这不禁会让我觉得其实频频让位是我性格所导致的必然结果。当然，我承认这是一种优点，但是还是会感叹为什么坐在我旁边那张priority seat上的仁兄每次动作都比我慢一步，或是那位小姐为什么每次都舒服地酣睡着，让人舍不得把她叫醒。原来，地铁车厢里装满了很多的金马奖影帝影后。
虽然这样说会让我很不好意思，但是我就是觉得我“坏”不了。尽管不是坐在那地雷重重的位置上，但每到一站，我都会下意识地巡视看看有没有人比我更需要这个位子。即使是像昨天一样很投入在小说中，还是会因那踉踉跄跄的老人暂时无法专心，而只好让位。让位会让我开心多过沮丧，但它也让我疲累多过醒神。哎呀呀，我只是一个typical Singaporean，所以难免想要complain一下。下一次，缉查人员，请你们不要无聊地开发单给那些吃糖果、喝白开水的搭客们，而是应该暂时担任评审员，挖掘一下这些无限潜力的好演员们。
村上春树。
我在村上春树的《Norwegian Wood》里第一次读到一位作家可以把做爱这件事描述地如此……
“I slept with Naoko that night. Was it the right thing to do? I can't tell. Even now, almost 20 years later, I can't be sure. I suppose I'll never know. But at that time, it was all I could do. She was in a heightened state of tension and confusion, and she made it clear she wanted me to give her release. I turned the lights down and began, one piece at a time, with the gentlest touch I could manage, to remove her clothes. Then I undressed. It was warm enough, that rainy April night, for us to cling to each other's nakedness without a sense of chill. We explored each other's bodies in the darkness without words. I kissed her and held her soft breasts in my hands. She clutched at my erection. Her opening was warm and wet and asking for me.
And yet, when I went inside her, Naoko tensed with pain. Was this her first time? I asked, and she nodded. Now it was my turn to be confused. I had assumed that Naoko had been sleeping with Kizuki all that time. I went in as far as I could and stayed that way for a long time, holding Naoko, without moving. And then, as she began to seem calmer, I allowed myself to move inside her, taking a long time to come to climax, with slow, gentle movements. Her arms tightened around me at the end, when at last she broke her silence. Her cry was the saddest sound of orgasm I had ever heard.”
April rain and quiet melancholy。对，如此适合交杂在四月的雨声中的寂静的哀伤……
那位叫Nagasawa的男配角。
我每次不经意地对村上春树的小说人物产生好奇，甚至夸张至动情。如，Tony Takitani和现在的Nagasawa君。
我喜欢他，因为这段对话。
"What kind of authors do you like?" I asked, speaking in respectful tones to this man two years my senior.
"Balzac, Dante, Joseph Conrad, Dickens," he answered without hesitation.
"Not exactly fashionable."
"That's why I read them. If you only read the books that everyone else is reading, you can only think what everyone else is thinking. That's the world of hicks and slobs. Real people would be ashamed of themselves doing that. Haven't you noticed, Watanabe? You and I are the only real ones in this dorm. The other guys are crap."
好狂妄，却又寂寞的男人。
我喜欢这种与世界有点格格不入的人。
不屑和别人分享奇怪的想法，因为他们不会明白。所有认为自己很奇怪的人如果都不分享，那么奇怪的人不会遇上另外一个奇怪的人。他们注定一辈子很寂寞。
